lifeform467

Happy birthday.  

So. I created this deviantart account five years ago. That was also about the last time I signed in.

I used to live in the same house as a older boy named Christian (carclub1). My brother, Christian, and I hung out a lot. This is how we became friends. This is also how I met his friend Alex. Eventually Christian moved to the same street that Alex lived on. A few years later I moved to the same street as well. We all would hang out at Christian's house. I remember once all of us (my brother, Chris, Alex and I) played at a SSB Melee tournament. In the first round it was me vs my brother vs Alex. It was one life stock and I don't think they were any items. I was Luigi and Alex was Mario. We were playing at Onett. My brother was eliminated first (I forgot who he was). Me and Alex were on the ground on the right edge of the screen. He grabbed me and threw me off the map eliminating me. He would then win the tournament. We all got t-shirts but I don't know what happened to mine. I forgot what it looks like.

When we were at Christian's house, he and Alex told me about deviantart so I set up this account. I was 11 at the time. Alex commented on my account a few days after I made it. I used my account to favorite sonic art. Then I started reading one of the stories Alex wrote. I don't remember what it's called or how to find it but it was about a fictionalized version of Alex and his group of friends. I think they were hedgehogs? Well anyway I quite liked it. I also admit to being surprised by how much I liked it. It had subtlety that I usually didn't see from him. I never told him that I read it. Then I believe he broke up with his girlfriend and since she had a character in the story he re-wrote it. I read the new version of the story but I thought it had less story and was too forceful with the jokes. That's what I remember thinking anyway. Haven't lost interest in that I just stopped signing into deviantart all together.

There are two very distinct memories I have of Alex while he was battling leukemia. One was when my brother, Christian, and I went to his house. He had lost his hair and was pretty lethargic and pale. We played video games (I think SSB Brawl) then I watched him and Chris play Yu Gi Oh (Alex won). We all drank the mini cokes the hospital gave him that he kept in his mini fridge. I remember him beating me in Brawl and I remember telling him that I would beat him someday. He just kind of slowly shook his head no, as he stared blankly back at the screen.

The second memory is at Chris's house. My brother, Chris, another one of our mutual friends Anthony, and I were hanging out and he showed up. His air had grown back and his color had returned. I wouldn't even say he looked fat as much as he just looked swollen. His face, his arms, his hands. But he was happy. He was laughing as hard as he used to and playing games and being weird and telling vulgar jokes. We had a lot of fun. I think it was Christian's dad who took a picture of the five of us that day. That was the last time I saw Alex.

I regret not visiting him at the hospital like my brother did. I regret not getting to know him better and for not using deviantart to do that. Sometimes when I'm feeling really bad for myself I feel like I didn't deserve to be one of the four people carrying his casket.

There's more I want to say but it's 3:54 am and I need to go to bed. I was on deviantart looking at some RWBY comics and I decided to write this. I got my account name from my email and the password then came to me. I don't know why I am writing this all of sudden. I mean I know why. But I don't know why I haven't written this sooner. Originally I wanted to let his friends on this site know what happened because there wouldn't be a way for them to find out. Then it became about  me venting and getting closure. All this had been in my head for so long and...that's all I have left to say.

Actually you know what? There's one more thing; I also regret never having beat him at Super Smash Bros.



Alexander Cruz passed away on July 23, 2012.
R.I.P. May God Bless His Soul. Que Dios Lo Bendiga.



Feel free to ask me anything.

Hello Alex. Its been a long time. I just pray for you every day and I hope you are okay. 

<3 Be safe my old friend. 

I still love and miss you.